My H frustraights me sooo much! I just don't even know what to do. Sometimes (like today) it just seems like we are too different to get along. Today we argued like we did right before the split. We've only been trying at this "new relationship" for a month or so . . . so why is it already down so far. He called and I was telling him about my day yesterday and he got all mad and yelled at me. I saw a friend from high school and talked to him for a minute and when I was telling my H about it. He was all mad and upset he said, " I'm sorry I don't impress you like that." I just don't understand. Then for the rest of the convo he was short and rude and downright mean and nasty. Finally before we hung up I got him to tell me why he was being like that and it turns out it was only because of me mentioning seeing that other person. I just cannot stand the thought of fighting with him like this for the rest of my life. I told him that . . . and he doesn't believe me, he thinks that I am just a puppet on a string that he can mess with. I know I'm rambling but I have to get it all out. He HATES saying ILY . . . and I always feel like I need to hear it . . . it frustraights both of us. But when we got back into this R we agreed to certain things and that was one of the things that we had talked about. I love him and I don't want a divorce but I am just so sick of fussing with all of this . . . I know that we both said a lot of things today that neither of us meant. Instead of just agreeing to hang up and talk later when we both calmed down I did what I always do and went into panic mode and wanted to slug it out with him because I'm always afraid that he'll "leave" and never come back. We are alright I guess . . and he'll call me back later. I just don't know how to feel or what to do.
