My H and I had a pretty good time together. Going out to the DR. Appointments and getting out together was a real good time. He was a little grouchy because he's ready to be "home" and is tired of having to leave and etc. I think he also feels bad because I can't really get around and I don't have much help . . (he took me to get groceries and bought EVERYTHING). He just left today and it made me hurt sooo bad. Watching him leave seems to get harder everytime. Why is that? I feel so lonely like I haven't got a friend in the world now that he's gone. Our daughter completely rebonded with him and BAWLED and threw herself all night after he left . . which is just what I wanted to do so it was hard to deal with her.
Which brings me to where I stand. . . the doctors appointment and the ultrasound went well until today! The DR office called me and told me that want me to go see a specialist, they think there may be something wrong with the babies kidneys. They said all of my tests came back fine though . . . but now they want me to go for some Stage-2 ultrasound or something like that. I don't mind going at all . . and am even slightly excited as the last lady couldn't figure out the sex of the baby because of the way he/she was laying. Anyway . . . the specialist is 3 hours away and I don't know how on earth I'd get there let alone there and back in one day. My appointment is suppose to be at 3 o'clock. Which means we'd have to leave by 12 . . . that's an awful long day in the car with an 18 month old. I didn't realize how far away it was until I got on mapquest tonight to find directions. I am unsure if I should call back the office and explain the sitch and see if they can find ANYTHING closer? What do you all think?
I got my support order cancelled. . . I got the letter today and it says it's cancelled and so is the "court date" and I have the right to refile at ANY TIME (which is great) if the reconcilation doesn't go the way it's supposed to. I was very excited about all of that. My H has been VERY loyal about sending me money and it's reassuring that I won't have to wait 7 years to file again if anything goes wrong . . I'm just glad I called and found out how to go about it all!
I really need to get back up on my BDing steed and get my butt moving. I saw my H and I going through A LOT of our old motions and having the same old agruements again. My H even mentioned something about us fighting and him wanting more than anything for us to be friends (married or otherwise). I hate it I am just unsure of where to go. I don't know exactly what happened or who started it but it's like since we both know that we've got each other neither of us bother to act differently. He's not sweet anymore, nothing like the very first time he came to visit. We still have our tender moments and it's so much more loving than it was before all of this happened. I have just had so much on my mind and so has he I guess we both forgot that our relationship is as important as getting EVERYTHING else figured out. Well I've jawed enough and honestly I'm quite tired. Everyone pray for me and my baby please! Hope to hear from you soon!
