Yeah his Mom use to love me . . said I was like a daughter to her etc. I loved her right back like a mother even though I disagreed with a lot of the things she did (never out loud or in attitude mind you). Then one day out of the blue . . she hated me she said I was condisending and had a bad attitude. This was after the info about my H's EA and my current pregnancy came out mind you.

My parents hated him when we got together and then by the time he decided it was time to split they had fully excepted (except for 1 sister) and were proud of him etc. Now that all of this has happened though . . they are back to their orginal stand on things. My mother told me, "We won't be mad if you get back with him, we'll just be ready to have you back . . because this will all happen again." Nice supportive families aren't they? LOL! I understand where they are coming from . . but jeesh!

I get so angry when he talks about her I just want to scream or hang up on him, I can't even explain it. I don't even want to talk to him if she's around. I know she's been talking me down to him again too . . even though he won't admit it because I think he's starting to waver on his sureness of wanting to come back. Maybe it's just me though . . I'm trying not to read too much into it. He brought her up in our convo tonight and I got mad and he said, "I guess that's just not a good subject to bring up is it?" I said No and he said, "You just need to calm down about her." I told him I wouldn't and right now if he wanted to stay married to me it was something he'd have to deal with (me not wanting to hear about her or see her or having ANYTHING to do with her that is). He just said, "OK"

I sure am tired of these hormone shifts that's for sure. My "roommate" Emily-2 and her stupid boyfriend have been DRIVING ME CRAZY lately. I am ALWAYS angry and crabby because he's ALWAYS here. He comes here before she's even done with work (around 2:30) and leaves after I go to bed. On the weekends he's ALWAYS here . . . unless they go out and party . . then he's with her all time . . so if she stops home to take a shower he sleeps in a chair in the livingroom. I MEAN WHY CAN'T THEY GO TO HIS HOUSE??????? He's a nice enough guy on the surface . . but some of the looks I get and the ignornant comments he makes really make me mad. I almost screamed at him to get out of MY house (since we are staying in parents house while they are in Florida and Emily-2 only came down to keep me company.) yesterday night. Then today I went out with another friend Tanya . . and when I got back about 2:25 he was IN THE HOUSE. I about walked in screaming . . and when we did go in he was cleaning . . MY HOUSE. He gave me a dumb look and said, "OH . . I thought you and the baby were sleeping." When the bedroom door is wide open and he could see right in. . yeah right.
I do all the cooking and cleaning around the house and when Emily-2 does something (like the dishes maybe once a week) he gives me dirty looks and throws himself like she ALWAYS does everything. Well I don't feel like I can say anything about the situation and so I just tell my H about it (he hates the guy anyway) . . but tonight he got mad at me and told me to go take it out on them instead of crying and bitching to him about it. It hurt because I don't feel like I can say anything about it . . I just try to stay out of the room when he's here . . as much as I can when my daughter is asleep. I feel trapped in my own house and it's a major source of stress for me right now. I just wanted someone to be on my side about it (my H has always done all of the standing up for me since we met . . because I don't stand up for myself) and I wanted it to be him. What on Earth do I do . . . IT'S STARTING TO WRECK MY NEWFOUND R WITH MY H!!!!!!!