I just need to vent for a minute . . I'm not really looking for a lot of advice I just really need to get this off of my chest. . I've been having a lot of second thoughts (normal or otherwise) and it's really bothering me because I feel that I really did quite a bit and now I don't even know if it's all right. The problem doesn't lie directly with my H and I . . . it lies with family. My H would tell me I worry too much about what other people think and such. But lastnight he made a comment that really set me off . . "I think my mom knows that when I move you and I are getting back together and moving back in together and she's not even that mad about it." <--- It just REALLY makes me wonder if it's a good idea to get back with him. I HATE that he is still all buddy buddy with his mother. I know I say this a lot but I'm just sick about what to do with him. I want to be with my H more than anything . . I want my kids to have a normal life . . BUT I do not want to be miserable or spend the rest of my life holding things against him. I just about hate him for everything now that I'm not all worried about him leaving me high and dry. Why is that!?!? I wish that any part of this could make sense.
