by virtue of your name alone you can't just give up - you're hope and you float I'm sorry you're having difficulties. NYSurvivor has put it wisely as usual, about pain bringing good things. THink about childbirth: if if were up to women to decide whether to progress into labor or stop and wait because it's too painful, there would be no births and no infants. Moreover, think about childbirth from the newborn perspective: it hurts like hell, it's scary, it's highly unusual, and there's nothing you can do about it although you wish the whole thing just stops and leaves you alone. As one joke puts it, twins before being born say goodbye to one another forever, because it's obviously the end of life: no one ever saw a newborn coming back in.
Where are you at, by the way? Anywhere close?
To get through the darkest period of the night, act as if it is already morning.
The Talmud
