Thank you, Imdi. It helps if someone gets mad on my behalf. I appreciate that. Just let him know that you thought about his suggestion, and that at this time, you can't afford half. He'll have to take it or leave it. Besides, you didn't force him to leave your home, and you certainly aren't making him move out of his brothers This is what I will have to do then. And you're right, I didn't force him to do anything. I did say to him today that I am being put in a very unfair position right now. I didn't say it with a mean-spirit, I just stated the truth of the matter. He's only about himself right now, and there must be something HE is gaining by me living in our house while he helps to pay for that. His words exactly: "I'd like to see you stay in it." Why? When I asked him if it was so he would have the option to come back in the future (wrong question, I know), he said he wasn't coming back (for the umpteenth time). Plus he also said he wants a legal sep. which I will not pay anything towards. If he wants that, he will have to handle it by himself. Honestly tonight, I'm thinking I just can't do this anymore. He only wants things his way. He is still with o.w. and is making no plans to come back. He tested the waters last week ("I just had to see something.") and is moving forward ("My life is different now.") I am tired of being alone without his love. I'm tired of playing these games and being so accomdating while he does whatever he wants. I'm tired of so many things. I want his love and our life to begin over, but not one thing is happening to make me feel good about this.
Most of us really marry only once. First love endures, even unto our dying day. And we never really divorce.
