P&Dbing, Good morning. To answer your question, H. does have his own acct. but he has not yet moved his paychecks from being directly deposited in our shared acct. to his own. He mentioned to me a few weeks ago that he was going to make the switch and I think he still plans to. Over the last month he would only call every 3 days or so to give me the acct. info. I did notice an increase in his calls over the last week, and to be honest I certainly wasn’t expecting to hear from him yesterday. I didn’t want to talk to him, for fear I would just get upset again, so that’s why I didn’t pick up. I wish I understood what he wanted, what he seems to be looking for, and why he thought he might find it with me, but didn’t. It bothers me that he says he is not depressed, because from where I stand he certainly seems to be acting that way. And then there is this fear that I have, that H. is possibly at a turning point with o.w. and before he took a bigger step towards her he wanted to be sure that he did not have mixed feelings about me, so that is why he came over Monday. This rollercoaster is making me dizzy.
Most of us really marry only once. First love endures, even unto our dying day. And we never really divorce.
