It certainly seems like a game doesn't it? I think I can answer part of that...it is not a game to you. As for her...control, maybe. I am not the wisest person here, but I understand what you are going through, a part of it. I really do, heh, I wouldn't be posting on these boards if I didn't.
How do you get past the mixed signals? hrnmm I see you play hockey as a hobby, first off best sport in the world...you start the season with a goal in mind, winning the championship, right? you shrug off the losses and focus on what works to get to that goal. Focus on what works. Read DR, and do all the stuff that is hard. I will say this as a guy, pulling no punches. If you cannot do the hard stuff, then you aren't going to reach that goal as fast, if ever.
JRY, Go to the Mid Life Crisis Boards, look up the MLC Resource thread and read the hell out of them, see if this is what your W is doing, I think it is, but I am pretty new here too.
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