No offense taken at all, lmdi! I know, I really regretted telling him I had been attracted tosomeone, and I did try to explain afterwards why I said it and just was really honest with him, but it definitely made things worse. And the other night was not so much about making him jealous as it was about feeilng violated and like he was trying to control me. Sometimes I wonder if I am cut out for this dbing business, I am just way too emotional!!! But anyway, I just wanted to update the sich a bit by saying that at my nephew's christening on Sunday, H's aunt told him that he was a fool for leaving me, he will never find anyone as good as me, or who loves him like I do, etc. And he replied "She is already seing someone, she had him in the car the other night, and lied about it" So his aunt ( who I talk to) told him the truth that it was my girlfriend, but he insisted that no, it was a guy, he saw him!! Bizarre - how coule he say that when there was only a girl in the car?!?! Anyway, I followed up with an email just basically explaining why I pulled so far up, and how if I was to decide to date anyone that I would have nothing to hide, but that I have decided not to do so for personal reasons, that I will not latch onto the first guy who comes along just so I won't be alone, that I want to take this time to work on myself and focus on my daughter. But that if and when I am interested in someone or decide to date, that I won't hide it from him because I will not be doing anything wrong. I also mentioned that I wouldn't flaunt it either b/c I know that it would hurt him to see me with someone else and that I have no desire to hurt him, but that he has moved on and so now I am moving on. So that was that. I specified that I was only telling him b/c it felt like I was lying and I do not like to lie, so I wanted to clear things up - NOT b/c he had a right to know. Thanks lmdi and Grasshopper for your advice. I definitely have to learn to be less impulsive with my H. Afterall, he is impulsive enough for us both, that's for sure.
