I agree, I think that is why I love reading all of the posts here. It seems impossible that we could all have been married to people we just did not even know. There seems to a very common thread in all of the stories, at least most of them. And I do believe that the concepts of the books make alot of sense, so at the very least we can take comfort in knowing that we have tried everything, right? Do you feel like you didn't appreciate your H before this? I mean, my H was not perfect but for some reason I tended to focus more on the negative than on his many many positive traits. And I always expressed doubt about his love for me, yet now that he has left I feel totally shocked. I try not to beat myself up for anything in the past but right now it is hard. I know he is with OW right now and though I usually block that out, tonite I am sad. Guess it is the snow. They are calling it a blizzard (??) and I just keep thinking about the blizzard we had in 2003 when my daughter was almost one, the three of us were trapped in the house all weekend and we had blast. I miss him so much. Wonder if he misses us. Sorry to be so negative, just a bad day. Hope yours is better.