Hey flutter- But then I remember my husband, the one I USED to have, before this insanity.
I think a lot of us LBS' go through this. Which, in a weird way, is kind of comforting. I mean, sometimes i think that maybe my H just never was the man i thought he was. But, if so many of us are having the same experience, then it must just be something they are going through, as opposed to it being a character flaw. Does that make sense? I don't know. Not that i want to take comfort in anybody else's pain, but it is nice to not feel so alone. Especially when the one person who was supposed to never leave us has done just that.
I think everything that you are feeling is very normal. You will go through periods when you feel like you can conquer anything. And then, there will be times when you just want to give up b/c the pain is unbearable. And i don't know when it ever stops, if it does. But, just know that you are not alone.
I, too, have thought that walking away would be the easier thing to do, and i was not going to take the easy way out. I have always felt that i would have no regrets when it came to trying to save my M. And, so far, i don't. I am just feeling very hopeless, but thats after 15 months.
Anyway, try to hang in there. There will be good days and bad days. Hopefully, soon, the good days will outnumber the bad.
