WOW! I did not realize it has been over 2 weeks since my last post!
Well the unlikely is starting to happen....
It seems that my W is being honest about trying to repair our M! 4 weeks ago I was talking to lawyers about proceeding with a D, and now it seems my W is trying to re-commit to our marriage! By no way am i out of the woods! Not even close! We are just stating the journey of repairing our M. the thing is we are enjoying each others company again. We both want to spend more time together alone and as a family. We are respecting each others personal time. The big thing is we are talking and being open about our feelings. Is this the happy ending? No! My W still has reservations about us, and so do I! I will not have the same marriage again, or put up with the emmotional turmoil we both inflicted on each other. My W has to prove to me she wants me and our M, and I have tocontinue doing the same! We have our slip ups and I wonder if she is committed. The difference is I am not afraid to talk to her about my feelings! I will let her know if I feel insecure. The difference is she does not react negatively to me talking. She wants to know why and understand my feelings.
The biggest hurdle we are working on is her foregiving herself!
After a year she sees the damage that she inflicted on me and the kids. She really feels the pain of that. It took me WANTING a D for her to see it. Right now that is the biggest obstacle for her before she can enter back into our R completely. She feels sometimes it easier to bury the pain and just walk away than deal with it, but she knows that will not help her personally in the long run. We are working on it together by talking to each other honestly.
I thought I would just put a quick up date on the board! Remeber sometimes when you don't think there is any more hope, and you have reached the end of your rope like I did that just around the corner there is something exciting and new that will rejuvinate your soul again!
I am still here with everyone! I am not out of the woods, but remeber there is hope!
Tim
my story http://www.divorcebusting.com/ubbthreads/showflat.php?Cat=&Number=1049617&page=&view=&sb=5&o=&fpart=1&vc=1
