We have communicated via email already but I just wanted to publicly say that I really am sorry you are going through this. You are doing the best that could be expected and you have stuck this out for a long time when other men would have crumbled. Sure, you had your moments of bad DB, and maybe this last episode was one as well, but you know what? Sometimes you have to do what you have to do and no amount of reading or advice can help you. I think your situation actually will improve from here. You have been doing this for so long I think you accept daily pain as a normal part of life and love and it's not my friend. Love should not hurt and I think you've taken the first steps in making sure it doesn't hurt you anymore. You know you have people here who care for you and maybe it's not love, but it's damn close. Look to us for support and move forward with whatever the next thing is. Don't lose hope, and don't lose yourself in all this. Whether your W returns or not, your happiness WILL return and your life will become better for it...and so will your kid's lives. Please take care. My thoughts and prayers are with you.
