Hit the Wall....Am I on the otherside?

[Tim297181]

So I figure everyone out there will be posting today so I thought I would add to the frenzy!
I hope everyone does well today!
I actually feel good! This morning was a beautiful day up here in my part of Canada. Sun shinning, snowed last nite, beautiful to see at sunrise, and cool crispness to the air! The start of the day makes it easier to get through today.
So in my world my W attitude really has not changed. She is stressed over mid-terms and has been studying. So i started my prep for today yesterday.
I had bought her some Victoria Secret when I was in Vegas (we don't have them up in Canada in our area). It is sexy but I said what the heii!
I left it on her pillow last nite with a simple home made card I had the kids help me make. All it said was
"Cupid did some of his best work on me with you! I will love you unconditionally til the end of time!"
Like I said what the heii! I was not going to hide my feelings on a day like this!
So I she asked me for a back massage last nite and I obliged. No big deal with both enjoyed it while we watched TV. She went downstairs to bed and came out a few minutes later after I was already in bed and thanked me for the present! I said I wanted to get it for her and I hope she enjoys it. She stood there a few minutes quietly so I invited to stay upstairs with me but she said no thanks politely. I expected that so no big deal!
This morning she put on the bra and panties and showed me! A little high lite for my day, but it ended there!
She left and really did not look at me at all. She also told me she had a "study group" tonite. I expected that so it was no big deal!
My plan for the rest of today is keep busy, and not dwell on my sitch. I also am planning a nice dinner tonite. Chicken Parmesan and Pasta, Mozzarella and fresh tomato salad, tiramisu, and nice bottle of red wine. I love to cook so the prep is more of a chance for me to relax. If my W would like to join the kids and I she is welcome to. I never told her my plans because it is more for me than her! She has study group anyways!
I have been doing a lot of reflecting and I am letting go more and more. I still want my M and R to work with my W, but she needs to decide that is for her. I need to be true to myself. Being true to myself is being there for during school, and being true to myself is also buying her a nice Valentines gift. It was nice giving it to her with no expectations of anything in return.
I may not be able to openly show the love I have for my W today to her but I have ound other ways to do it. Today is just not about my W it is about the kids and all the other special people that I love in my life!