Feeling better today! Had a good seesion with the C. She cannot believe how resiliant I am, but does wonder how long I can put up with this. I actually said once my W ends this semester we will have to really make some hard choices if our sitch does not change. Meaning if she is with the OM still, she needs to move out and live her life on her own. My C said I have great quality in that I am so giving, but my W is taking advantage of that. As long as she is not participating in improving the R I need to tone back being so helpful. My C does not know much about DB but she told me I need to give back to Tim because I deserve it. Let her ride out her emmotional rollercaoster alone. Sounded real familiar! Thanx everyone!
So I am just completely drained and my only plan for tonite was to relax! So my W came home and asked if it was OK to go out. I said no problem. Actually I wanted her out so I could relax by myself! It fely good! I was not bothered at all and told her to have a good time! She kept thanking me for allowing her to go out tonite because all her classmates were going and that I have been doing everything with the kids again! She said this several times and all I said was no problem, and that it is not me allowing her to go out it is just communicating better! So just before she leaves she says "Just so you know I am not going out on a date a whole group of us are going" I just told her no problem have fun! Then she came over to the couch to kiss the kids good bye and then just out of reaction bent down to kiss me first...! She said "Oh what am I doing" Continued to kiss the kids then came back with a smile and kissed me!
I just smiled and actually chuckled to myself as she walked out the door!
I think I handled myself alot better and feel stonger because of it! We are planning to go for dinner tomorrow nite to "talk". I want to hear what she says and if nothing is really changing I want to firm up our schedules to get some quality "TIM" time in!Wish me luck!
Tim
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