Hit the Wall....Am I on the otherside?

[Tim297181]

Hi everyone! Back from Vegas!
I had a great time! Gambled and drank a little and oh yah I was down on business so I did that to!
Nothing exciting to report except I had some fun and relaxed a little! What happens in Vegas stays in Vegas!

On the home front things have changed a little.

Before I left we had a couple discussions and we started to lay the ground rules out for the immediate future. I was becoming more comfortable with the fact that we may actually face the big D and was able to detatch alittle more. I was still friendly and firm on my position that I did no want to D, and that she needs to take responsibility for her actions.

While I was gone I was a little home sick, and my W and I had a couple good conversations. I could tell she was a little more warm and friendly to me and I actually spent a 1/2 hour talking to her one nite becasue she found out she failed one of her paramedic qualification exams and has to re-write. She was questioning whether she should continue with school or quit. I told her it was her time and I would kick her butt if she quit!
Anyways when I got home I was not sure how to act around her. I brought her a present from Victoria Secret (nothing sexy...cotton underwear and body lotion) which she really appreciated.
She spent yesterday studying and I spent it with the kids. Did not talk too much. she decided she wanted to sleep upstairs becasue her back hurt. That was ackward and we both did not sleep much (I am very sleep deprived from VEgas)
This morning was weird because she told me I was cold and after we spoke on the phone while I was gone my reaction to her was cold. I told her I am confused on how to react around her, and when I came home I wanted to hug and kiss her and the kids and say ILY but felt I should not.
Well long story short she came over and gave me a big hug and told me she had enjoyed her time alone with the kids and had a lot of time to reflect on what was going on in her life. She then told me she still loved me despite all the things she has done. Then just before I left for work she hugged me again and we had a small kiss!

A couple things from all this. It seems my time away has made her think a lot which is good. I can not react to it too much because I am not going to go forward in our R if she is only in it half hearted!
The other thing is I found out the OM is moving away to another city for 6 months. This may have something to do with the way she is reacting!
For once I do not have my hopes up. I believe she may want to discuss a few things in regards to our R but sh has to show alot more commitment before I get real excited!