Thanks for the tips :-) Actually, right after I dried up and had discontinued breast feeding I did come across a Medela pump like the one you mentioned and went ahead and purchased it. I believe we eventually will have another little red-head running around here....so I did purchase it off of my friend who was finished with it. I figured even if I didn't use it...I could always sell it.
For me, it's as if I drink a cup of dye, right, and don't notice that it's nothing but blue dye. The next day my skin looks a little funny but I carry on with my day. Drink some more of that delicious drink. The next day my skin has a wierd tinge to it, I continue on. Drink some more. By the third day, I wake up and am absolutely blue. Head to toe. And I go, Fck! I'm resentful..that's what my problem is!
It is so sneaky that I don't realize it's even brewing in me til I'm already in resentmentville. Sometimes a thought will bounce around in my brain for months and I ignore it and someone on this bb will say something and, bam!, I'm filled with resentment and my poor H is off at work providing for our family and has no idea what I'm up to.
Last week, it was Chrome who mentioned something that his wife does that drives him crazy and I wrote back and said that nothing I do drives my husband crazy. I let this stew for a few days and finally asked him this weekend. He named off 3 things right off the bat. I was astounded and felt very badly. I attempted to explain to him that my resentment gets the best of me (he didn't even notice as I have gotten quite good at acting as if) and he has the power to wash it all away immediately with just a few kind words. It would wash away even quicker if he'd DO some of those things but, hey, who's keeping track. (where is that delicious drink, anyway, there I go again, lol)
I felt heartened by the speed of his answer and somewhat by the content. Like a lot of LD folks, his answers tend to focus around "special occasions" rather than everyday stuff. But some not. He named kissing as one and that is certainly do-able.
He's so enjoying his new routine with the new job...sleeps more, has more time in the evenings, feels more relaxed, etc. He has also been on a marathon to indulge himself in the things he likes to do that he has been foregoing in order to sleep (or ML to me ) and has been ignoring me in the process. I keep telling myself that this is part of the deal...we will all settle into this new routine sooner or later and not to make a big deal out of it and, for sure, don't start trying to control things. Which is hard for me, I know that will surprise many of my loyal readers. LOL
On to another topic.
Exercise:
Wow, it's really time. I went back to WW and discovered that I have gained 10 pounds since last July. I've never done this in my life..rapid weight gain..and I have to confess that it has me worried. Along with the hair loss and other weirdo symptoms of last year. I was SO dismayed to hear that, so now I am absolutely on board with getting in shape. I talk a good game for a loooong time, but once I finally make up my mind, there is no stopping me. I feel that familiar determination this time that has been missing in my other attempts. We will not have insurance for the first 90 days that H works at his new job so I cannot go see an endocrinologist and ask what the bleep is up with me. I don't even think I gained weight that rapidly when I was pregnant! I have been eating worse, definitely, but nowhere near the amount of food that would warrant such a gain. H even got inspired to go out and buy a new weight set this weekend, which is something we've talked about for years. He has said that he'd feel more libidinous if he was in shape but would not buy the weights. Actually I should say "could not", as I don't think he could have fit one more thing into his day.
This weekend my Grandma asked him if he was still going to Mass every day, since he started his new job, and with NO sense of shame, guilt or remorse he announced that, no, it's not fitting into his schedule anymore. More huge-ness.
In conclusion, I can feel that we are settling into a new routine. It certainly has its ups and downs as we all get our bearings, but if I can keep my paws off the resentment booze, we'll be okay.
The weight gain could just mean that your metabolism is getting a little slower. Personally, I've always struggled with weight. But my sister, who was always a skinny minny says that she is now 10 lbs heavier for no reason at all. (She just turned 30.)
Anyway, I find that in order to lose the same amount of weight that I did 10 years ago, I have to work a LOT harder. Blech
I lost about 15 lbs since the summer and then stalled. So I hired a personal trainer at my gym ($$$$, I know), and boy, it has made a HUGE difference in 2 months. I've only lost another 5 lbs or so since I started working with him, but I have lost about 3% body fat, atleast one dress size, and am starting to get some muscle tone back. Can't wait to see what the next 2 months will bring.
Anyhoo - just my long-winded way of saying - add in resistance training. In addition to cardio and diet - that is the key, especially for us mamas in our 30s.
Julie makes an excellent point. I don't know how many people, myself included, that start exercise routines by themselves then either just quit outright or let it slide so much that they might as well not be working out. If you want to make it stick, do it WITH someone. And make it a priority. Don't allow yourself very many cancellations of your workout "appointments" together. Really, if people will just spend 6 months to a year and get into a good routine, you will continue it indefinitely, usually only stopping if some major life event occurs. Then you need a restart.
Spending $$$ on a personal trainer is a great use of money, if you've got it to spend.
"Recollect me darlin, raise me to your lips, two undernourished egos, four rotating hips"
I went to WW all last year, just kept trying to get that baby weight off, and so I had a record of exactly how much I weighed from week to week. As I was looking through it, it was really amazing to think that I stayed at one weight forever and then it all piled on suddenly.
I've never been that way before..always gain it slowly and lose it fast, thank goodness. Could be nothing but age (aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaggggggggggggggggh) though. I just would have expected age-related metabolism changes to happen somewhat gradually, as opposed to suddenly. Plus, I've had other changes like my frickin hair falling out and excessive tiredness. My hair has started growing back in and I am beginning to look normal. It's about 3 inches long in the sections where it all fell out.
Ahhh, I better stop now. Making myself sound far too attractive.
Nah, Chrome, we don't have money to spend on a trainer.
That's okay. I'm married to an exercise fanatic who happens to be a former Marine and a morning person (the latter being the most disgusting part of his personality, LOL).
Since we are so hungry to spend time alone together I think that getting into an exercise routine will be something we both embrace. Just gotta beat the kids up. Oops that sounded bad. I mean, get up before them of course.
"Nah, Chrome, we don't have money to spend on a trainer."
Neither do I. I made friends with one when I was in grad school and he gave me free lessons. Got in really good shape. In the past 5 years with a new job, 3 kids, etc. I have lost about 100 lbs on the bench press, about 6 inches on my vertical, and on and on. I gotta get back into it.
"That's okay. I'm married to an exercise fanatic who happens to be a former Marine and a morning person (the latter being the most disgusting part of his personality, LOL)."
LOL. I'll have to agree with you there. Of course, I'm an astronomer. We love the night best.
"Just gotta beat the kids up. Oops that sounded bad. I mean, get up before them of course."
LOL. For a minute I thought you were going to institute an exercise boot camp that included the kids, replete with lots of pushups for pooping their diaper or not eating their carrots. LOL
"Recollect me darlin, raise me to your lips, two undernourished egos, four rotating hips"
I'm with you. I still have a pesky few extra pound after DD. I have NEVER had problems getting rid of excess weight. I KNOW that it shows because people keep saying. You look good with a little extra weight on. Blech!
Karen
PS I've been working on improving my diet and exercise. I did pretty well last week.
Next time keep your genius suggestions to yourself and just tell me to go eat something. LOLOL
Bwahahahaha Well, good, my dear. I hope you are sore when you wake up tomorrow. Now there!
Baby steps is right. The morning after my first training session (which we focused on legs), I literally (and I mean LITERALLY) could not walk down the stairs. I was contorting my legs and howling with pain with each step. It gets better, I promise, lol!
Now regarding hair loss...isn't that normal post-partum stuff? I had pretty bad hair loss after both babies, and its only now growing back after S2. I literally have bald patches on either side of my head. I know, attractive!!
Well, anyway, no harm in going to an endo and having everything checked out. Sometimes, the body does wierd stuff after a pregnancy. I was always very irregular and in fact took Clomid with my first, but now I am like clockwork. Eh??? My reproductive system finally figured out what to do, now that I am trying to prevent pregnancy.
Ok, I am rambling on today. Have to get back to work!
) and has been ignoring me in the process. I keep telling myself that this is part of the deal...we will all settle into this new routine sooner or later and not to make a big deal out of it and, for sure, don't start trying to control things. Which is hard for me, I know that will surprise many of my loyal readers. LOL
