So the general consensus appears to be Chill out Honeypot!
Allrighty I can do that.
I'll be brutally honest here, since I can say this to you folks but would feel like a turkey saying it to H: Propping him up with his job difficulties has been one of the most difficult things I've had to do in my married life. He was absolutely destroyed when he got fired and it's been an uphill battle since then. He has leaned *heavily* on me and there were times when I just felt like I couldn't do it. Still, I'd reach deep down and find it in me cause he needed me.
Now he has a new job...he will be happy here, it's at a place that he's been trying to get on at for 10 years. And I'm still having to prop him up! He's nervous and insecure about it. Which normally I'd do in a heartbeat but, like I said, I just do not have it in me lately. I need some physical affection and for him to pull his head out of his....er, mind...and focus on something besides his job. I know all you fellas will chime in and tell me that this is like asking me to not focus on my lovely little girls (they are beautiful angels to me today because 2 of them are with their grandma, lol) and I can grasp that. I'm not asking him to shake it off or ignore it entirely, just to spread some of his focus around.
I'm worn out being his cheerleader.
However, this is not something I could ever share with him. It would hurt him tremendously and so this is venting and nothing more.
