Hiya Lass, So you think that my two strikes and yer out position is unfair, eh.
Well, I've been giving out the pleasant reminders for eons now. I think you're right that the 'hopeless talk' has got to go...it may or may not be the rest of my life but what good does that kind of talk do. At the same time, it is intensely frustrating to say something and think that you've gotten through, only to have the same damn thing happen the next week. I'd almost prefer if he'd say, "You know, I'm so wrapped up right now in my own stuff that I doubt I will be much good to you these next weeks. Please have patience with me."
You know what? I'd do it in a heartbeat. I am a compassionate and understanding person. What I don't seem to have tolerance for is someone getting my hopes up and then not following through with it.
Plus, he's been playing the Shame Card and that does nothing but push me away from him. He tries to make me feel ashamed because I have physical urges, kwim? "I'm tired and all you can think about is getting off..." etc etc. For once, I stayed perfectly calm and just told him that I wasn't playing that game anymore.
I think we'll get right back on track, I really do. I was just blindsided by this setback. I figured that it would be easy to get back on track with a setback and not require a full fledged "discussion" and hurt feelings, etc. I thought we were done with that.
