I just want to let you know how much I appreciate your comments. It keeps me grounded. I may end up wrong and you may be right; but like you said I have to ride it out for now. For instance, we were talking tonight when I dropped my stepson off and I told him have an awesome time as I gave him a big hug. I actually think I saw her smile???
Anyway, we talkedand it sounds like she would like to go out somewhere in the next few weeks if she can ask for time off and get a sitter. Hey, it could all fall apartand that would be a bummer; but I think you have helped me get to that point you had tried to explain to me and I didn't get before.
I think I am at the point where if it doesn't work, then I will be lonely; but it will be okay. I am getting a life. I know that she may push back again; but I need to take advantage of these opportunities now; because once the kids are out of school she and I will not be able to get together for swimming, etc. as easily. It's kind of crunch time to see where we stand without actually asking.
I will be okay if it doesn't work; but maybe just maybe she is slowly thinking??? Today, I asked her how work was and she said it was okay; but that on Saturday night she came close to walking out. (Wish I had that ability!!! lol) Maybe her working will wake her up to what stress I felt. And maybe she is noticing the changes in me. If she doesn't want me back then, then it's her loss. Like I said, I really appreciate your input and Iam not ignoring it or putting no stock in it. I am just keeping it on the backburner for now. Believe me, I could tell her off for doing some of the things she has done and yes, I am angry; but I care enough for her that I will not let those things derail me from making sure.
