I do try and keep involved in other stuff. For instance, tomorrow, I was going to see Beatlejuice (a group that sings Beatles tunes with Brad Delp singing from the group Boston. Unfortunately, this is the second time that these people I am supposed to go with have had to back out. Legit reasons; but it sure does put a damper on the positive attitude I am tryingto maintain.) I do however, have a luau that my friends and I are going to that one of our friends has every year. I have to defend my air hockey title from last year. They have around robin tournament at the party.
I do try and improve myself; but my X and I still do stuff together, which can be good and bad. The good is, as Just_Me says, that she obviously enjoys doing things with me still. The bad part is that I keep some hope alive that she and I will eventually find a way to work things out. Don't get me wrong, I still go out and do stuff with friends. It is the down time where I am not around anyone that sucks. I was so used to coming home and someone being there, her the kids, etc. I like alot of people hate that I come home to noone.
Who knows, maybe she is just using me for companionship; but she does do more stuff with me than before. It's just that she still keeps me at arms length. I nthe meantime, I keep looking for fun stuff to do and when the occassional opportunity comes up to go on a date, I do.
My biggest thing is to try and maintain my regimen for staying in shape. I feel good, look good; but I am looking for that one last blast to get me where I want to be. It used to be easier for me to stay in shape. I guess I feel that I should be attractive to my X and other women; but I want to get over that one hump to feel like I am back to where I used to be.
