Thanks for the pep talk. I do believe she is okay with hanging with me; but I guess that sometimes I am not so sure. For instance, when we swim laps, we might do some small talk; but in general, we are about a half a lap apart from each other. So, is that really considered hanging out? Also, it's not like she can stop me from going on those days. The only thing is that, yes, she doesn't have to go; but maybe it is the only time she can go??? Well, enough of the negative...I guess if she didn't want to go, that she could find another time or just say that it bothered her. I hope it doesn't.
Real hard though to not keep hoping. Also, hard to keep going forward without knowing if I will have to either give up totally or that I may have to stop and wonder whether to take her back. It's hard to want something and not know if it is right or will work???
Thanks again for your input. It may not work out; but I know that as much as it may hurt, that I am doing all I can and can look myself and my kids in the face and say that.
One last thing. I said to a friend today: "How come after all the things she is doing to me, pushing me away, the affair with that guy, etc. do I still want to see if it can be fixed??? That's the part I don't get (And no, it's not for the kids!!)
