Well, nothing new to report other than the X maintains the distance...
Well, Just, looks like you finally got me to where you kept telling me to be. Would I love to fix things? Sure Iwould; but I can't do it alone and yes, I always knew that...Just was hoping for better results.
I never understood why she got close to me spilled her guts and then turned tail and went into a shell with regards to me...pushing me away...It is sad; because I know that our problems are not major and were fixable...I also know that my daughter, although I started to think otherwise, still misses her old house and school, etc. That sucks to know that. In addition, my X is feeling financial pain because the money that is deducted from my paycheck is not getting to the state or the state is screwing up somehow. The kids are being taken care of and I have offered her money till this all clears up; but she refuses to borrow it.
She called today to ask if I knew anything else with regards to this issue. I told her that my company had disbursed a check on Feb. 13th...That check has not gotten there??? Well, she complained to me that she needed to take money from a high interest bearing account taht she has money in to pay for her auto insurance or they will cancel it...She knows it is not me; but she is angry that the money is not coming in and should be. However, not in a bad way; but I am glad that she feels some financial pain in all of this, as long as my kids are taken care of. She just doesn't get or acknowledge that without my income, regardless of her job, that she would be up the creek.
Also, she complained yesterday about having the kids 24x7 and not being able to go out...I told her that I would take my kids anytime. So, it seems her reason for leaving, "to protect the kids", which was BS anyway, is not an issue. Nice excuse.
Well, just journaling and venting; because I am so disappointed in her and her not working together to fix our relationship and our kids family
As bummed as I am about all of this I am okay and know I deserve better...I have always known that; but I thought we legitimately had a chance...Maybe we still do; but I am not holding my breath...
