I can live without her if necessary; but it is not what I would like to happen. There are alot of people out there...it's just been hard finding them.
Also, there will always be a hole in me that can not get repaired due to the loss of family as I needed it and hoped for. Different is okay as long as they are in my life; but I know that I will be the parent on the outsied and that hurts and is unfair for her to get after she initiated and also did other things.
