I do try and make like I don't care at times. Like last night I was installing those cable lines and she and I had minimal contact while I did that. Also, I acknowledged that she said thanks; but I never really looked over at her I just took the suff I used to install the lines and left. Yes, I did play a game of pool. I enjoy it and wanted to see how I did and how she did. After I left there, I went to a pub I know and hung out with a few people for a a bit. On Mondays, they sometimes put a mvie on and have a few drinks.
Tonight for example, I am going to grab a bite to eat and then go to my friends house to hang. I could go finish the cable jobe over her house; but I will give it a day so that I am not there all the time.
Yes, I know that she needs to come to me and I would never want her if I had to beg her to reconsider. It would never work. I guess I just felt like she opened up to me and was close and then poof. Major pullback. Disappointing that's all. Hey I am not perfect; but I am one of the best things that she has had in her life and the most loyal and caring too.
