Well, the X called and my stepson is not going to go workout today as he is sick. Right now she is getting my daughters hair cut and then she will be home. I am supposed to go over and put in those 2 cable lines for her. Seems there is another problem too. The TV downstairs is fuzzy. I did notice that the connection was loose. I told her I would look at it. She then says: I will pay you for the materials. You shouldn't haveto pay for it. I said that is fine. then we talked a few minutes about work and she said it went fine. She has more paperwork to read and today had a certified trainer for waitressing. She told me that the trainer told her that last Saturday she shouldn't have had to do some of the stuff she did. I told her I was surprised that they have so much stuff for her to do and read. I mean my job as an engineer requires less of that. She said today was a little boring and that because of training they have her on alot of days and that she needs to not do as much after the training is done.
Well, it was cordial and she said thanks; but I just feel like this is never going to get any better and that saddens me; because I honetly know that it could be wonderful if both of us would just give it a chance. I can't make her and it seems unlikely that she will ever come around. I will keep trying for now; but when do I totally give up? I mean I will do other things and maybe date too; but right now as angry as she can make me sometimes, I still love her. Just afraid she will never let herself love me back. As I said it is really sad. We had so much ability to make a great life for ourselves and armed with the knowledge of our failures, we could be so much more.
I guess maybe I am wrong in thinking there might still be a chance!!!
Right now she is getting my daughters hair cut and then she will be home. I am supposed to go over and put in those 2 cable lines for her. Seems there is another problem too. The TV downstairs is fuzzy. I did notice that the connection was loose. I told her I would look at it. She then says: I will pay you for the materials. You shouldn't haveto pay for it. I said that is fine. then we talked a few minutes about work and she said it went fine. She has more paperwork to read and today had a certified trainer for waitressing. She told me that the trainer told her that last Saturday she shouldn't have had to do some of the stuff she did. I told her I was surprised that they have so much stuff for her to do and read. I mean my job as an engineer requires less of that. She said today was a little boring and that because of training they have her on alot of days and that she needs to not do as much after the training is done.
