Okay, so now I am closer to thinking it may be over and that makes it confusing. On one hand it really saddens me and on the other, I am angry at her and want to let loose on her and tell her how she has destroyed ours and our childrens lives.
Here is what happened. On Saturday, I asked the kids if they wanted to text message their mom and tell her that they hoped she had a good first day at work. So we did. The message read:
Mom hope u r having a good day at work!
Luv L, A & F
She replied back with:
Thanks hunnies Al done 4 2day Love u guys
The kids and I were on our way to church when we got the reply. When we got back to my apartment, there was a phone message:
Hi this G its' about 4 and M has me on a tentative schedule for next week; because of training, he has me on quite a few days. He has me on the schedule for Wednesday. I was wondering if it was possible you could pick up F cause I won't be able to get him because I have to be in at 10:30. So, I will miss him by a few minutes...You can either drop him off to my dad at my sisters house or you can keep him till I get home. I'm supposed to work until about 3:30. I might be done sooner; but I have no guarantees??...Let me know if it is a problem, then I will let M know and I will switch my day off from Wed. to Thur. or something like that. Tell the kids thanks for the message. I hope F is feeling better and I will talk to them tomorrow. Thanks. (Very lighthearted)
That night I had them call her back to say goodnight.
The next morning I went to drive them to Religious Ed. When I was alomost there, I got a cell call from my X. She had been at mass and was wondering if I would be thee soon. She was going to say hi to them. I said I was. I then said I was going to get coffee after and if she would like to go she could. (I need to waste an hour while they are there and I have no place to go since it is not my town.) She said she had nothing going on so she would go. Well, when I got to the church, she was dressed nicely and I told her that. SHe said I always dress for church. To which I stupidly replied...Not before. You used to wear jeans and sweats. (Not good ) then our youngest who is kindergarten age refused to go into class, which has become a habit and my daughter even commented later on how he gets away without going. Anyway, she I and F went for a coffee and milk!!! We talked a little. Seemed a little forced; but then she talked about not being able to swim on Tuesday because of work; but that we were on for Thursday. Talked about a few other things like the dinner that I was supposed to make her and how the Dept of Revenue has not sent her the support money and our plan to play racquetball soon??? She left and I went to get the kids. Hung out with them and it was tough because all I could hink of was how she walked and how this affected our kids.
Well, I dropped them off and my daughter was showing her the birthday gifts she got. My X didn't want to touch them; because she was dusty from patching and sanding some walls in her house. I said it's too bad you didn't do that before; because I could have used the help in our house. (She never made an effort to help with that stuff which I had hoped she would have.) Then she and I arranged that she would call me when she got hom from work on Monday so that my stepson and I could go workout. I asked her if she would be home Monday night so that I could run those cable lines she asked me to install. I told her I had some time that night and if I didn't finish, that I could finish another time. So far, so good. But then my daughter started getting on her mom for forgetting to give her the folder for Religious Ed. To which my X said that the woman would have to get over it. I had also told my daughter to let the woman know that she ad been at my place and that if there was a problem to the woman talk with me. I let my X know that I said this to my daughter. She seemed okay with it and said the woman needs to let it go; because I had to substitute for her a couple of times. To which I stupidly/jokingly said "Oh, and you are a good choice for that!!!" Well needless to say that irritated her and she said "I know you have said that before." I tried to remember when and I did recall that it occurred many months ago when there was alot of tension and I even knew there was the married guy stuff and the fact that she divorced me. At that time, I felt that she wasn't exactly the best person to teach them because of what choices she had made. Well, I told her I was joking and that I didn't want to argue with her. I said I'm sorry if I hurt you. Let's just drop it; because we have been getting along pretty well. She said you will always be annoying. Man that came from nowhere. Well, needless to say the next minute as I was leaving was strained and she said "I can say what I want in my house." I said nothing other than I don't want to argue or anything...Let's just drop it. I said I will wait for your call to go workout with my stepson. Then I left.
So, I guess I put my foot in my mouth and that she may have no interest in me. I am sad and last night I was at my friends house and never really talked or talked about her like I normally do. I was angry and didn't want to get emotional or feel it might be over. If she thinks I am so annoying, then what the hell is she doing stuff with me for??? IS this another one of those I say something; but it is not what I really mean things???
Frank
P.S. She is working Saturday night and Sunday night. I feel like, even though it is not my weekend, that I should be there with the kids, so that one of their parents is there with them. They don't deserver to be aprart from both of us.
) then our youngest who is kindergarten age refused to go into class, which has become a habit and my daughter even commented later on how he gets away without going. Anyway, she I and F went for a coffee and milk!!! We talked a little. Seemed a little forced; but then she talked about not being able to swim on Tuesday because of work; but that we were on for Thursday. Talked about a few other things like the dinner that I was supposed to make her and how the Dept of Revenue has not sent her the support money and our plan to play racquetball soon??? She left and I went to get the kids. Hung out with them and it was tough because all I could hink of was how she walked and how this affected our kids.
