Well, picked up the kids this morning and drove back my daughters friends from our old house area. This was to help my X who needed to be into work at 10:30am and she had originally told the moms 10am to pickup before she knew her hours.

Things have been okay; but she has been more standoffish. I am tryingto back away and last night I hung out at my friends house. Her and I hadn't seen each other in awhile; because she had gotten back with her old boyfriend who couldn't believe a man and woman could be just friends!!

Let's see, yesterday afternoon, I was supposedto pick up my stepson to workout at 3 and then drive him to his Dad's. My X called me about 2pm and told me he didn't take
anythingto workout in or clothes to take to his dads. So, she asked if I could pick him up and then bring him to the house. Idid and when I got there I found out that my youngest had stayed home from school and had a fever. My daughter was having a bunch of girls ove r for a birthday sleepover and she had originally invited her sisters and their kids too (not her dad though ); but they bailed when they heard my youngest was sick. She seemed stressed with all that she still had to do and that the youngest was sick. So, I offered to give her an hour or so of my time so that she could concentrate on the party and I would take care of my son. She said she was okay. So, I let it go and left with my stepson.

I got there this morning and the X was ready to leave for work. She started talking to her mom and I kind of got ignored a bit; but whatever. Then her mom thaked me for her anniversary card and the sympathy card I had sent her sister whose husband had died.

Well, we did talk for a little bit and I wished her luck with the job today. She left and her mom talked to me for a few minutes and left.

One thing that I happened to hear when my X and her mom were talking was that my X went out last Saturday night after all. Not that it is any of my business; but we had gone to dinner with the kids after going to Winterfest and later that night a U2 tribute band was playing that her sister, her husband and sisters friends were going to and she and I had talked of going. She had said she was tired and wasn't going to go. Well, it seems like she did and she has every right to go; but she could have said she was going and not lied. I had wanted to go to see the music and such but didn't want to go alone.

Well, anyway, I am trying to back away; but when I hear that stuff, I start to wonder if it will ever work and whether to bother.

I also was talking to my friend last night...hung out with her until 2am... and the mother of my daughters friend who are both divorced and both seemed to indicate that my and and themselves never went in with the idea of marrying and getting divorced; but then things change and there is nothing you can do to fix it. I told them BS...Does anyone believe that it is true or do they think the love can come back. That is what I believe; but not sure if what they say is correct. I think that if you truly loved someone before that it can come back. My daughters friend seems to believe that when it is over there is no way to get it back. I have a tough time believing that the love can't be rikindled. If it can't, in my case, then I will be sad and will always look at the part I had in it with regrets and saddness that I didn't realize our problems sooner and maybe saved our marriage

I have the kids this weekend, which is great; but part of me wants to give up on her and is saddened by that the other part of wants to keep hoping.

Now I need a plan on how to protect myself from the hurt, if there is a way. I believe in miracles; but maybe I am wrong on that too. Man this is hard to endure as many of you know.

Frank