The thing is that if my stepson can't make it on a Wednesday because he is too busy, then that is fine. However, I still want to workout with him the ohter 2 days, as it is my only contact with him. Also, I enjoy getting pushed to swim more when I am swimming with her. I don't know that I would otherwise. So, I would still like to do that. However, I do try and back off a bit; but I said I would take care of something for her when she asked awhile ago. One is that she asked me to put in 2 cable lines for the kids. I still plan on doing that. The other, unless she wants to back out is that I had told her I would make dinner for her and she seemd excited at the time...not sure now if she still feels that way.

It's hard for me; because I don't want to seem phony or to make her believethat I totally don't care anymore. For instance, last night, I knew she had a wicked cold and so I brought her a Decaf tea and changed the kids for her; because she said it was ok. Tried to help her with that then left right away. (I guess that is good for me these days)

As far as driving half-way, that isn't going to happen...As it is, I drive both ways on Thursdays, every other Tuesday. The only time she drives is to drop them off at my apartment and I drive them back.

Well, I hope I didn't push her away... It seemed like we were gettingalong fine...I guess I just am not the type who gives up on a commitment I made. So, to do this is hard and out of character for me.

BTW, I don't want you to think I don't do anything but pine for her. I do go out, like last night I went to a place to hag and listen to music; because my friend wasn't able to go. Tonight I am going with my other friend as I said earlier.

Frank