Okay, so I did well last night. I dropped the kids off took care of what I needed to with the X regarding my taking the kids this weekend. And I left without giving a hug, kiss, etc. Was hard; but I did it. The only thing I did that I am not sure was good was that when I picked them up last night, my X signalled for me to come in, as she was on the phone. It turned outthat she was calling for her work hours. She starts on Saturday waitressing. Well they wanted her to start today; but she has kids coming over for a sleepover for my daughters birthday.
They were all supposed to get picked up at 10am Saturday and then she was to drive the kids to my place...about a 25 minute drive. Well, they want her at work at 10:30am, so there is no way that she could get them to me and be at work at the same time. (I already drive most of the time; but the gas is getting expensive and I didn't move, she did) So, stupid me, I offer to come get them so she can get to work on time. Why do I do this??? I should let her experience some of the pin for the decisions she made; but I always seem to open up my mouth and help her...
I mean I am glad to do so because that is who I AM: BUT I think she should have to deal with her decisions. Am I wrong in helping her, since there is no indication of any future together??? Heck, with the child support and her waitressing, she is going to be bringing in more than me, even though I am the one with the fulltime degreed job that I worked hard in college and professionally to have for us and the family. I don't begrudge the money going to support my kids; but I do get upset that I am not allowed in their lives daily.
Should I just give up on her totally or is there still a chance that it could turnn around???
Just, I guess this is the part of where, like you I start to give up; but I am not so sure how I will do that. I am going out tonight with a friend of mine. She isalso divorced and she likes me; but I am just her friend. I am open to meeting new people; but worried that this is or isn't the end for X and I....
Opinions?
Frank
P.S. I had literally given up on her about 6 months ago and then I let her back into my heart. I guess she never really left it; but I had let go a bit. Now I need to and I don't want to. My daughter would like me to move to the town they are in and I want to; but I am afraid if it will be too much to deal with.
