Just got off a phone call with the counsellor. He pretty much told me that I need to stick this out for now; because from what I have told him, he feels that I still love her and that in some ways that she is softening. Otherwise she wouldn't meet me or hold hands, etc. However, he does say that she needs to address her parents influence here and that yes, it might never work; but that it has more potential than months ago.
It's the impatience in me and the fear that it may never be.
Like I said I do try and do GAL stuff; but alot of times it is alone. And lately, alot of the stuff that gets planned to do with others gets cancelled.
I guess I will wait to see if she calls tomorrow to go to the Winterfest with the kids; but that if she doesn't or if she feels that we shouldn't because it makes her parents uncomfortable, that I should just let it go for now and meet her for the swim on Tuesday, etc. and let her have the space and time to work on herself.
It's hard when you are at one place and you are waiting there for the other person to arrive there too and they might never get there.
I honestly thought she and I would never get to this stage where we actually did stuff sometimes with and without the kids, hold hands, etc. That is what gives me a possibility of hope; but there are no guarantees and that is the part I have trouble with.
