Thanks for your input. I appreciate different perspectives.
I agree that she must enjoy my company because she is not totally pushing me away. Sometimes she does; but lately, she has been a bit more receptive to me. I mean I would think that she wouldn't meet me one on one if she didn't have some feelings. I just don't want to get too high on that. I think if she were to want to consider working on a relationship sometime in the future, that the biggest obstacle will be her parents; because right now she has to rely on them for alot of things nad she is seeing how they control her.
I do continue to try and show her and myself the person I used to be and want to be. I feel I have made alot of positive chnages both mentally and physically in the past year. I know that she sees it; but it is that last bit that makes someone say let's try again, that is the stumbling block for now. I do continue to try and feeed her "love bank".
I guess my fear of her starting that new job is that initially, everything seems new and exciting and that those people may have more contact with her than I do and that works against me. After awhile, when she is in the routine and if we continue to do things together, then maybe I will feel more confident!!! I guess I am happy that we are where we are now; but fearful that it may just stop all of a sudden.
I know I need to be patient. And I will try; but I am enjoying the time with her and want it to be more eventually. Tha would be a great thing for us and our kids; but I also need to keep in mind that it may never happen.
