Ok, now I am really lost??? My X met me for dinner last night after she dropped our daughter off at dance. She finally scored a job and I told her I was happy for her. (She also may pursue something I passed her way for a job from a friend of mine; but her parents have issues with that job and pretty much tell her whether they will watch the kids or not based on whether they approve of the jobs....She definitely needs to break free of their grasp; but that is her problem to deal with).
All in all, we had a nice dinner and we talked about different stuff. In part of the conversation was my original offer to make dinner for her from way back. She told me that her new boss went to the culinary school she wanted to attend and that she would like to get some recipes from him so that I could make one of those dishes??? Also during our conversation were 2 other topics. One was that I wanted to get a family portrait of myself and the kids and asked her if my stepson could be there too. He has agreed to be in it. She said sure. The othe topic came up when we were talking about workouts at the YMCA. She had asked me whether the pool was back open and I said it was and that I had just swam there today. During the conversation, we both realized that we would be going swimming Thursday morning. So, we agreed to meet up there at 9am.
Lastly, as we were leaving, I gave her the info for this other job. She said thanks for dinner and I said we should do it again sometime. Her response was sure, when I am not working. (See, she plans to try and work when I have the kids and such.) So, this all gets a bit confusing. No indication that she wants a relationship again; but she isn't pushing me away either. The only times she seems to is when her family is around. I wish I knew what was going on in her head; but I know I can't ask and maybe she doesn't even know yet. I just fear that I will keep some hope alive and then when she starts working and meeting new people, that I will no longer be needed or maybe I will???
BTW, I am meeting a woman tonight who seems attractive and nice; but I still am not sure that I know which direction I am going yet. I am going so that I don't just sit still and then get blindsided.
Any insights, opinions, good or bad? I know noone knows for sure what is with her except for her. And she may not even know!!!
