Well, let's see. My X and stepson went to the concert. they seemed to have a good time and she told me about it; but never quite got to thanks or you shouldn't buy tickets like that, etc. Hey whatever...
This morning I got a call from her. She asked me if I could run 2 cable lines to the kids rooms for her. I told her I would (But, why is she asking me? She always wanted someone else before and not me? Hey, I don't read much into it; because she still has that bit about her that is standoffish. She has been much better; but still there is that something holding her back)
We are supposed to meeet for a bite to eat while our daughter is at dance; but then she keeps talking to me tonight when I dropped off my stepson and looked at what I need to do to run the cables. Then she says are you leaving soon, I am not paying attention to what I am cooking? I told her that I was and that it was her who was talking not me!!!
Well, anyway, during our convo, she also talked about a bunch of other things and she made a comment about not paying attention to some of the stuff that the workers did because one was too old and the other too young....but then she said so and so was good looking? (Man is that immaturity or what?) Hell, I am a good looking guy and a nice person and she just won't let herself cross that line. I am glad that we are meeting up; but I feel like what for??? I mean if she has no intention of ever tlaking about working together on an Us, then what is the purpose of getting together?
Well, I just wish I could understand all the crap that is going on in her head. She is trying to change her older sisters image and get her to curl her hair, put on makeup, etc. and then want s to go with her to Curt Shcillings wifes salon??? Oh, yeah and her sister doesn't drink, so she told her we need you to start drinking wine so we can go out!!!
It's like she is trying to make up for lost time...I don't know why; but I don't get it??? I just look and see immaturity as far as that goes. I mean, she wants to go out; but when we were married, she would never be able to get together with our friends???
If she just woke up and realized what she is losing in me and what she has done to her kids; but it doesn't look like that is going to happen anytime soon
Her loss; but I wish it wasn't because she is losing out on a person who would work with her and could make a great life together.
