Well, I've come to find that she's cheated twice. The first was an EA. This was back about a year and a half ago. The second, of course, was this one. Heck, to be quite honest, I don't know if the first was physical or not. She was writing love letters to her ex-boyfriend in Colombia. Then she went down several months later to visit family. There's a good chance she did have a physical affair then too.
It feels like it is over. I don't see how she would ever come back. She is so mad at me, and I still don't know why. I do know that one reason she won't come back is because I have told my family what has happened. She is very angry about that. I kinda thought that was what family was for...isn't it? Anyway, I am lost here. Part of me never wants to trust her again, and I would be rightly justified in getting the divorce. The other part of me wants her to come back and give me a chance to fix things...to make everything right again. To make amends for my mistakes.
I am so confused. She has been screwing around on me. She has betrayed me, and my trust in her. Yet, I still want her back. Is that wrong?
