Started a new thread bacause i guess the ultimatum thing didnt work out like i planned..though i didnt stick it out like i should have @#$% Went my first day officially in 3 months with no contact what so ever..Was really hard to not call..wanted to talk about us bad..i had a few tears this morning. Taking the kids to her brothers house later and going to stay for dinner. Dont know what she did last night or where she stayed... This would be a whole lot easier(i think)if she would just come clean about what the hell is going on.Only solid proof i still have is a intimate phone conversation and their plans to be together.She continues to say that it wsa nothing and it will never be nothing with that person.She says that has nothing to do with our seperation and our marriage problems,but fear that this is whats blocking her from coming back right now. If i could describe it i would have to say...it feels like i know everythin and nothing at the same time. Hell i really dont have a clue what to think,just needed to talk a little this morning..was a very tough night for me. I think the going dark has peaked a little interest in her and sounding happy on the phone the other day confused her a little when all i have talked about for 3 months is the R.And i havent said a word in a couple days.Only hope i can stick it out for a while to see if its doing any good at all.
