My H came home today for a few hours before he goes away for 2 weeks. wasnt expecting it. had prepared myself for not seeing him for 3 weeks!! Was nice to see him and first place he came was straight round to see me which was good.
He asked me how my love life was going with my BF!!! So we therefore started talking about us again...
He said again, that he could not just suddenly drop everything going on is his life and go back to normal with me and him. he said in his mind he wanted us to carry on with our own lives, but to carry on seeing each other and let me and him get back together naturally....
He said he needed me in his life, and even though he has had many OW, he said he always comes back to me... which is true!! He said he did not feel ready to comit to me, but he did still need me in his life and always would and he wanted to have relationship with me and that i was no 1 and the most important...
I thought I would test the water and ask him for something without puting too much pressure on. I asked him if he could try and keep his OW out of our home town and away from his family. We live in a small town where everyone knows eveyones business, and I also have a very close relationship with his family, so it was making it very hard for me when he brought OW to his house. ( he lives with his mum at moment) At first he avoided giving me an answer, so I reworded the question and he said he would try his best to do this...
I do feel a bit stuck on what to do next?? I do not want my H to feel like he can walk all over me and string me along but at the same time I do want to stick around and try and make my marriage work.
My H's main problem at the moment is he cant or wont commit back to me. But he has stated I do play an important part of his life which is wants to continue..
So Dbing here I cum, I am going to get on with my own life as much as I can, going out with my friends, having a good time etc. being happy!! I need my H to see that commiting to me is not as hard as he thinks. I need him to realise naturally that his OW are not the be all and end all and he can have a happy life just with me...
I think this is going to take time, but if I am patient and give him the space he obviously needs at the moment I do think I can get through this....
