Is there any way you can find time to actually physically get away...soon? Like to a meditation retreat or even to a hotel where you can have quiet time/meditation for yourself for a day or two? For you own mental/emotional health, please take this into consideration. Are you afraid that if you let your W know that you are doing this, she will "see thru you" and think "hey, he's not doing as well as he says?". You know, you have every right -and an obvious need - to say "I need to take care of me!". I am responding with such fervor because I just went to the breaking point recently, trying to control my emotions, feeling too much like I was walking on eggshells, internally SURE that if I made ONE mistake, it was all over (although I denied it consciously!), trying to be a fabulous human being to the point of strain, for heavnen's sake. Take a well-deserved Time Out!
