I've been reading your threads since I've found this site and am just amazed at your courage and willingness to grow -as well as your generosity with others. What an amazing thing that you are taking yet another step and reaching out, letting yourself receive as well as give. There are many, many people on this site who will respond to your request and pray for you and your wife...and I'm one of them.
An interesting thing came to my mind reading you last two posts. You said your wife was one of those persons who needed your energy to help pull them thru their journey. This can be a good thing if it is balanced in a relationship and a bad thing - for both - if not. I know as one who came together with my husband as the quiet, nurturing element balancing out his forceful forward-moving energies; we felt that we would carry each other far in this yin/yang state. After awhile, though, we were unable to maintain this balance. He was unable to take, only give and (forcefully) be a caretaker and I adapted, losing myself and becoming dependent on him, forgetting my need to take ultimate responsibility for myself. Inevitably, he became resentful of me. This is not to say this is your situation at all. It is only another example of how imbalances can eat away at a marriage and individuals both. By working with every fibre of your being to rebalance yourself and by reaching out, being willing to ask for what you need to receive, you are setting a formidible example for all of us here. May you receive 10-fold all that you are giving into the world, as you are in need at this time and we are with you.
