I just want to make sure that I say that my wife was, and still is, a kind and gentle soul who I loved dearly. When I looked in her brown eyes I could see all the way into her heart. It was the one thing that overwhelmed me, that soul to soul connection we had. She told my counselor a few weeks ago she had the same feelings about me when she looked into my eyes.
She was a preschool teacher when I first met her, she loved 2 year olds because of their spirits. She has gone on to becoming a Massage Therapist, learning all the various massage techniques, sports massage, and many spiritual types of massage. She does these things so she can be of service and help people to heal their hurts. And anyone who receives from her always walks away better than they came in.
She has always been easy to love, there was never anything about her not to love. She has no enemies, anyone who knows her sees her gentle and kind nature. She was born to be a mother and is the best I have ever seen.
Even now she is still that person.
I always thought we were together because our souls were so similar. Kind, gentle, caring people. It wasn't "true love, meant to be" but two souls walking the same path in life, looking for the same things.
Even though I'm hurt and angry, I still have to say she isn't a bad person. She's just hurt for so long because we lost our way together and she doesn't see that we will ever be happy again, and she wants to be happy now. And I'm seeing a selfish side of her that I haven't ever seen before. But she is still the same woman inside.
And I know, as she said, she has loved me for so long she "doesn't know how to NOT love me" but it isn't enough any more.
Anyway, I just felt like I needed to say that. It seems that sometimes when we post we don't take the time to define who our spouse really is to us.
