I know I'm just being a whiner. I'm sorry for letting everyone down who looked up to me for whatever reasons.
Yeah, I have been through too much and survived. And some day I'll be big and proud and confident again. I was somebody once. Everyone knew me. I'll start some new venture someday and do great things. Just not today. And I'm sure that the way I feel right now is oh so attractive to W, or anybody else.
Someday I'll trust again, and find someone who wants to be with me because they don't have that history that W has so they won't mistrust me. Couple years maybe.
I just want to curl up and cry for an hour or two and get it ALL out. This is such a bad dream, when do I wake up?
