I really, really just don't know what to do. On some level, I wish she would just leave and be with him. At least I wouldn't have to see her face everyday and know that I'm not the only person in her heart (if I am even in her heart at this point). I feel so used, like she's holding on to this until its convenient for her to skip out on the R. It just doesn't cease to amaze me...she absolutely sees nothing wrong in this. When I went through everything, at least I recognized that it was wrong! She needs to experience life as it would be without everything, that is me and part-time with the girls, before I truly believe she can understand. I'm in a bad place today and I don't see it getting any better any time soon.
"Achieve success, but without vanity; Achieve success, but without aggression; Achieve success, but without gain; Achieve success, but without force." Lao Tzu
