At a turning point

[PArob]

I'm telling you, it really irks me to no end. Just like today, I called her on the carpet about the necklace this morning to some degre....then I wrote her that e-mail basically saying how I understand this, how I understand that, yadda yadda. When I call her at 11:50 to wake her up, I asked her to please read the e-mail. She said she would, told me to call back at 2:30 to make sure she was up. I didn't get any reply, nothing. I had a hunch, checked the phone card number and lo and behold, who do you think was on the phone? Why W and OM of course. I was livid. I called her on that one too....she started to deny it then owned up to it (really had no choice). I said something like what the hell, you carry on this affair, behind my back and I'm not supposed to be upset. She says, its not an affair?!??! Okay, what exactly do YOU call it. He wrotes a nice love note and everything, but its completely innocent. I get it. Of course she doesn't want to talk about it and then has the audacity to ask me..why do you put yourself through this? At first I thought she meant putting up with her, but she actually meant why do I keep finding things out and then getting upset about it?

What a joke! I was in the exact same position last year, and THAT was an affair...how is this not?

I am truly at a crossroads here....do I continue on with DBing or do I pull a last, last resort. On one hand I say that I haven't been true to my DB goals and I really only have been DBing for about a month. But on the other hand, she needs a wake-up call. The only downside to that is the only thing she'll miss is my emotional support...she'll still live here and she still have all the benefits of having me around without the obligations.

I feel a whole boatload of resentment coming on.....