Okay, once again, my big mouth has gotten me into trouble. It all started innocently enought, as these things often do. I was getting ready for work this morning when I tried to put the bathrroom drawer to go back in, it wouldn't. WTH? I pulled it out and found that some of my W's personal hygiene products fell behind it. When I pulled it out, out dropped a jewelry box with a necklace in it. Okay, not an expensive piece, a Wal-Mart Disney job, but this is the piece that my W had commented on on Friday when she went shopping. She mentioned it to me. I asked why she didn't buy it, and she said they were out of them. Oh, I see a valentine's gift in my futre. This is the same day that I found the letter from OM telling her how much he loves her. In the meantime, W had mentioned to me that she might go to the other area Wal Mart to see if they had any in stock.
So, I find this piece and immediately the questions start flying....why didn't she tell me she bought it? Why did she let me believe that I could buy it for her for V-day? On and on. So of course, like the emotionally detached and cool guy that I am, I confronted her (sarcasm intended). *sigh* of course this led to a huge R talk, which basically means I talk and she says nothing.
I really wish I could trust her, I really wish I had faith in her committment to be with me. But I can't at this point. However, I will try to stop and focus on what good I do have. She is with me, as far as I know, she hasn't been with OM for a while, she still says ILY, we are still intimate, she still loves me.
What is wrong with me??????
"Achieve success, but without vanity; Achieve success, but without aggression; Achieve success, but without gain; Achieve success, but without force." Lao Tzu
