Okay, well my stated goal yesterday has already failed. I've been on the down hill slide for most of the morning and I really don't like it. Everytime I start to feel a little better, it seems that I'm kicked in the face with reality. Today, it was nothing more than a carry over from the conversation I had with W last night regarding the note....I, stupidly, moved into R talk and of course was looking for a litmus test on where everything stood...well from what I can gather, nothing has really moved. Basically, she's "not thinking about it"...what's that supposed to mean? Today I said to her that I asked whether we will ever be better...her reply, I hope so. *SIGH* not much positive in such a statement as that. In any event, today I will try and continue to focus and move past these events. I have to keep remembering patience, love and understanding, mixed with a little of emotional detachment. I know it is the only way, but sometimes lack of patience gets in teh way....
"Achieve success, but without vanity; Achieve success, but without aggression; Achieve success, but without gain; Achieve success, but without force." Lao Tzu
