morning kdk - wow, I felt like I was reading my own post for a moment. Mine said pretty much the same things yours did and I wanted to believe it so much - but I felt like you in that no matter what he did, it just wasnt the same, it never felt as if he were 'home', he was just...there.
it's dishearting to see that things havent changed at all where they're concerned, while you personally have accomplished so much. I know it's normal to feel that way after all you've gone thru and that im sure it wont take long for you to figure out what it is you want.
