Think your WAS there is getting a little scared? I mean the D looming round the corner and you going out with a REAL guy.... MMmmmm He knows that if he doesn't somehow get his act together, it's really HASTA LA VISTA, BABY.... and you are gone forever from his life... and I think he is not ready to really let go.
As for going ahead with the D, what's the procedure? You don't want the sitch where he sees you retracting from the proceedings, and then he doesn't carry on to do the RIGHT thing...
Just my 2 cents..
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Yoyo: You don't want the sitch where he sees you retracting from the proceedings, and then he doesn't carry on to do the RIGHT thing...
I've also wondered about that. There would have to be a lot of changes from him in order for me to retract. And I don't think he will make those changes. Deep in my heart I wish he would because I still do love him and still am in love with him, but I can not go through this any longer.
Update:
H phones last night to ask if any tax papers have come to the house. H mentioned again that he would be bringing me some money on Friday. I told him that I took the Friday off and he could drop off at the house instead of my job. He asked what I was going to do on my day off. I told him this and that and my mom is having her retirement party at her job. H then tells me to tell my mom he said "Hi." This is something that is out of the blue. He has only told me once in the 15 months of our separation to tell my parents he said "Hi." H asks if he could stay a few days in the house until he gets his own place. I kind of hesitated and asked him if that's what he wants to do (I know stupid question). He said he did or he wouldn't have asked. H told me that I didn't have to allow him to stay. I rambled on that it would be okay becuase he would be able to help me out. (My head was yelling no don't let him but mouth did the opposite).
I just read a book about setting boundaries the night before. I just can't say no to H
