I am so sorry for how you feel. You know, I don't mean to make it worse by talking about it, but your house is "home base" for you and your husband, so I certainly understand why selling it is causing you so much pain. I know it's easy for everybody to say things about not tying it into the end of the marriage, but your feelings and emotions say otherwise, and that is OK. You go ahead and feel it, and you will get through it. Just know that things could still change; it isn't sold yet, ok? It isn't over till it's over, as they say. Don't worry about things like pictures and wedding albums, etc. Put all of that out of your mind right now. That is not a concern tonight. All you need now is a nice soothing hot drink and a warm blanket and a good movie or book. Keep it simple and don't pressure yourself.
Now, when you feel a little bit stronger, I want you to think about yourself eventually getting a very cute apartment of your very own, and imagine how fun it would be to decorate it, set it up, make it yours. Allow yourself to go room to room and have fun. I have done this, Imdi, and it helps me to visualize what it might be like if I have to sell our house and get an apt. It isn't so bad! In fact, I already know how I'd arrange my bedroom! lol! It's just a way to slowly face a possible reality without overwhelming myself. A little mental exercise for when you are ready; but not right now.
Sending you big hugs as always. It has to get better for us.
Most of us really marry only once. First love endures, even unto our dying day. And we never really divorce.
