Thanks GH- You are right...i can remember back in December, after i had a particularly emotional talk with H, that i had really screwed up. I felt emotionally raw and just really bad. But, then things picked up a bit with us and i felt a little better. I guess in my head i know that i will get through this...its my heart that's another matter. Its my own fault...i kept thinking that this wasn't going to really happen...i just set myself up. But, i do think that my H sent me mixed messages (what do you think? you're a guy) and even said that he wasn't 100% committed to the D. Maybe i just need to try to separate the house from the M. Its scary to think that that will no longer be my home...
Anyway, i appreciate your feedback...and i did laugh at your suggestion to look at myself naked...that might give me a good laugh.
