Hey hope and flutter- Thanks for checking in with me. Quiet weekend for me. Migraine on Friday night, so i slept. Saturday night i was with a girlfriend, and then my visit on Sunday.
H called me Friday evening and left a message asking me to call him back. When i did, he told me he called b/c my cell phone company had called the house and left a message (couldn't he have left this on the message?). That was it. He called again Saturday afternoon...just to check in. I went for my visit on Sunday...he was still home...we chatted a bit and then he was off to his superbowl party. Enjoyed my time with my kitties...miss them so much. H called around 11pm last night. When i picked up the phone he said "hi lovie." We chatted for a bit. He told me he missed my dad (in relation to the superbowl). That was about it. He said he had been drinking. He called about an hour later to say he had gotten home. I asked him why it took him an hour...he said he didn't know. Here's the rest of our conversation... H: I miss you. Me: I miss you too. H: You hurt me (he starts crying). Me: I know...i am so sorry. H: You're my love. Me: You're my love too. H: I loved you so much. Me: I love you too. H: I thought i would be with you forever. Me: Me too. I'm sorry i hurt you...i would do anything to make it up to you. H: I'm so lonely. Me: I'm sorry you're lonely H: I am too.
That was basically it. The whole time, he was crying uncontrollably. I really didn't know what else to say to him. I didn't want to try to convince him that we could get through this, b/c i didn't want to upset him even more. But, i wonder if i should have said something to him. I don't know. I am so nervous that he is going to continue to make steps to separate us even more (calling realtors, etc.). I don't know what to do. My stomach hurts so much this morning.
Well, thats it for my update this morning. Any ideas?
